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Self-Realization


In the months of March-April 2012, my school days got over, and I guess as a lot of people say life changes after your school, mine also did. For better or for worse, that I cannot yet contemplate, but a lot of things did change. Though throughout the year maybe I have been more down than up, had a few more frowns than smiles and a few let downs. Even though I sat through the year waiting for good things to happen to me or proclaiming myself as the “Neville” ( Why does this always happen to me kind of stuff) or even becoming the Jon Snow of my world (knowing nothing at all). Apart from the poor jokes that have been made there is something really beautiful which the show “How I Met Your Mother” has taught me, that

 The complete year I waited and tried very hard to be/hang out with the friends of my high-school, and every time a resounding “NO”, I felt completely broken and lonely inside and for a better part of the year I almost felt no wanted to be friends anymore.I never wanted any of it to change, but that’s not how life happens. Slowly and slowly as I came to the realization that even the so-called friends had a life and probably didn’t want it to waste on me and that relations like friendships cannot be forced on someone.

Recently while chatting away with a friend I took her opinion on the very same matter, and the answer from her did give me something to think about how foolish and childish was my behaviour across the year. What she said was and I quote: ”

school se colg ka transformation bahut bada hota hai…

 

kaafi school frnds peeche chhot jaate hain aur new new colg frnds ban jaate hain..”

 

though the old proverb” Old Is Gold” does come to mind, but still, one has to always be ready for new experiences and maybe I wasn’t ready for what life had to offer me. I cursed some friends, chided them for forgetting me and such nonsensical things and today when I look back at those moments, I cringe at myself and feel what a fool has been made of me. And so ending the post with yet another HIMYM teaching, I apologize for my behaviour and maybe I’ll try and be better.

“You see, the Universe has a plan, and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps its wings and it starts to rain. It’s a scary thought, but it’s also kind of wonderful. All these little parts of the machine constantly working, making sure that you end up exactly where you’re supposed to be, exactly when you’re supposed to be there. The right place at the right time.”

Make a Wish


This post has been published by me as a part of the Blog-a-Ton 40; the fortieth edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. To be part of the next edition, visit and start following Blog-a-Ton. The theme for the month is “MAKE A WISH”

Make a wish, they said.

To have true friends, I said.

You don’t have friends they asked?

I do have friends, I said.

What’s wrong with them they asked?

One is fickle, one has forgotten

one just simply doesn’t care

the other has found new ones

some don’t want to talk

some don’t want to meet

some just don’t think it’s worth the time, I said.

So the only wish I make, is to have a friend

who wants to,

talk to me

hangout with me

care about me

and means the world to me

and then they just stood there quietly.

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